self discovery.

I'm still trying to find myself; my confidence is a lie.

Big Day Out

Big Day Out was ... pretty damn Big. Now I'm not one to gloat, but SUCKED IN TO THOSE WHO DIDN'T SNAG ONE OF THE 55 000 TICKETS FOR FRIDAYS BIG DAY OUT! Because it was nothing short of AMAZING.

The star studded line up was topped when Muse were announced to be headlining. One of my favourite bands of all time, not to mention the likes of Powderfinger, Lily Allen, The Temper Trap, Dizzee Rascal and Girl Talk. But then the forecasts were predicted to be an insanely hot, 40 degrees in the west, and as usual, Big Day Out is in the western suburbs. So Anna, Jono, Kenny, Shaun, Scott and I sweltered in the unbearable heat. On a couple of occassions Anna and I had to call it quits due to the intensity of the sun. But overall, THE DAY WAS FREAKIN HUGE!

OUTFIT FOR THE DAY:

AgentNinety9 singlet - General Pants - RRP: $60 SALE: $30

Haikee shorts - Small unknown boutique - RRP: $30

Rabens shoes - InSport - RRP: $20

Vintage bag - Gift from mother

Nail Polish - BYS Black Satin - Gloss - RRP: $3.95

Sunglasses - Cotton On - RRP: $12.95

Contact lenses - Green FreshLook Focus DAILIES - Gift from family friend

Walking to BDO! OOTSOOTS

Annabananna - BDO GF

Shaun the Sheep

Where our darling Felicia should be!

We MISS you !

CRAZY CROWDS AT DIZZEE RASCAL!

ride my bike

- 85 - by vivalalee featuring Judith Jack jewelry

I was venturing around the shops yesterday with a friend and I stumbled upon the Siren boots featured in the above set. I. Fell. In. Love. The small details which cover the boots give it a modern effect with a "bad girl" connotation . I teamed them up with a cat claw singlet as well as basic studded shorts. In order to complete the "bad girl" look, I accessorised with black basic jewellery and a leather jacket.

- 86 - by vivalalee featuring Helmut Lang

I love Doc Martens, so when I saw these on Polyvore I felt my heart melt a little inside. I thought I'd continue this "biker" look by teaming them up with some frayed shorts and a basic wool side top. To finish this casual look I didn't want to overload it with accessories so I stuck to basic biker-esque bracelets and a black necklace to add dimension to the top half of the outfit.

Here's lookin at you #2

To the random waiter who works at the Italian restaurant next to where I work. You smiled at me through the window while you were serving someone today. And can I just say, I melted when you did!

YOU ARE TOO CUTE! =)

C.R

It's almost liberating to know I survived the past three years.

I didn't think I'd even make it through my first year of school. But you held my hand through Orientation, helped me make my Easter hat for the annual MPPS Parade, walked me to After School Care every single afternoon, helping me back up when I had fallen down on the concrete and you were my big sister. Overcoming the tradegy three years ago was beyond me. I was adamant in believing that there was absolutely nothing in the world that would make me forget and stop hurting.

The truth is, I am still hurting and I haven't forgotten. But I survived and althought you're not here, I have to thank you for helping me survive the past three years. Without you, and your 13 years of wise words, I wouldn't have made it. I would have quit a long time ago.

You always made a difference. You always will make a difference.

And I will always miss you.

I used to ask myself why did it have to be you. But it is selfish of me to wish it upon anyone else. I wouldn't want their friends and family to be suffering the pain that I and many others have. I think when you left, you left a little selflessness behind, that we all picked up and adopted.

I miss you so much. And I love you so much more. Please stay safe in your happy place. I hope you like the flowers the girls and I scattered around for you.

zebra

My temporary nickname (in amongst a hoard of other, much more unfortunate ones) is currently Zebra.

Let me tell you why!

I ventured to the beach yesterday as the temperature soared to the high 30's. CP, Mick and I set up camp at this tiny secluded beach just off Cronulla (I'm guesstimating it is about a 2-5 minute drive). Despite being filled with littlies, it was really serene. The water was a perfect temperature and the shallow parts stretched out to really far distances. If you walk out far enough, you will reach a ridge in the water where the knee level water suddenly becomes deep enough to drown a grown adult!

But anyway, we tanned for about half an hour before we had to make a long trek home. We are not air-con people so we were rolling with the windows down. Little did we know, this was tanning us, on one side only! CP and I were unfortunate enough to have only tanned on our left thigh & arm. So now I'm black + white. Hence, Zebra.

On a completely irrelevant note....

I am confused.

It's so sad...

We are mates.

We were friends.

But then your new girlfriend came along and you seemed to have forgotten about me. At first I started making excuses for you; blaming your new girlfriend and the "honeymoon period" on our sudden drop in communication. Then I started pointing the finger on my new job dragging me away from my friends & eating up my social life.

But then I realised, you didn't HAVE to delete my Facebook posts on your wall which contained nothing but my well wishes for your New Year. You didn't HAVE to suddenly become defensive when I brought up how I felt since she came along. Like you said there is no reason why I should be upset, therefore, there should be no reason why you should get defensive. You didn't HAVE to forget about me.

You chose to.

I am only the way that I am today because of you. I have come to a point in my life where I am no longer sorry for being a bitch to you and to her.

Accountability: the state of being accountable, liable, or answerable.

Add that to your vocab.

Guns don't kill people ... Lazer's do.

If you don't already have Major Lazer's album I suggest you get off your ass and go get yourself a copy RIGHT NOW!

While my holidays have been nothing but busy, busy and ... did I mention busy? I finally found some time to sit at home and complete things which have been crying my name for weeks. I feel some what relaxed and back at home with my laundry complete, car washed AND vacuumed.

All the boring, housewife stuff aside, HOW WAS EVERYONES NYE's?

I for one, can say that NYE was well spent. Despite having to work until 9.30PM, Christina & I managed to get back out onto the road and at John's house by 10.30PM. (Please note that I work out in the Hills District & John lives near Bankstown Airport; factor in time to get ready and eat, I think we did fairly well).

Big Day Out is in TWO weeks! Excited? Yes, but I am trying very very hard to contain it as I was overly excited for Stereosonic and was instead, left sitting on the fence about the festival overall. That being said, I am spending BDO with a completely different group of friends and I'm sure they know how to party!

New Years Resolution progress:

I haven't cut down on my MSN + Facebook consumption, partially because I am still on holidays, so this resolution will have to be delayed another month + three weeks as University doesn't start until March 1st!

My healthy eating, dance diet has kicked into full force. Now I don't want people to think "WHAT?! This girl doesn't need to lose weight" and I agree, I don't. I'm quite content with my current weight, being 57-58kg. But I am an avid dancer, and with dancing comes a strict diet which doesn't involve starving (this misconception can get on my nerves). The main point of the diet is to keep me fit enough to dance on a three times a week basis.